I wish I could give up
I wish I could go on..being the same
I wish I could find myself
I wish I could find something..
I know the shield is gone
I know there never was one..
I think I’m gone
I’ll be back soon
perhaps..

I think I can’t choose
maybe because I’m too weak,
maybe because you’re too evil,
maybe because we’re too unaware
of everything around..

I know I have nothing left
I’ll have to close the box
hope is inside..
You have thrown away the key..

I know I’m lost
Is there a right way?
There’s nothing to hang on to
I don’t think there ever was
only illusions..
Maybe I could make something out of them
Maybe they are all I’ve got left,
all I can ever hope for
if I’ll ever be able to hope..

You are all so blurry
I think I should close my eyes..
But what can I do about the thoughts?
How can I protect myself?
just hang on..
Why?
Maybe I should try..
Maybe not..